I Need To Be Braver

OMG, my laptop charger HATES me. Work, damn wire! Or I shall feed you to my hamster! Oh, and um, yeah:

I HAVE A REGRET.

I know what you’re thinking- something along the lines of ‘Psh, so what, everyone does’, no? Well, I have a few regrets, all centering around the fact that I really need to be a braver person.

My current regret is one that really makes me sad. A few weeks back, I was sitting at my local cinema, waiting for the early viewing of Eclipse I’d gone to see to start, and I just about had a heart attack. In waltzed one of the most gorgeous boys I have ever seen with my own two eyes. Skinny jeans, bangs, Converse, the works. And a nice butt belt that I stared at when he got up. And he looked about my age too, which seems to be a rarity for hot emo boys in the North of England.

You see, if I had been a braver person, I could have talked to him, and quite possibly asked him out. I vented to my best friend for almost half an hour yesterday about how I wished I had. But, since I am a coward, I did not.

Anyway, moving on. I’ve had a good weekend. Today I got A Little Faster and All We Know Is Falling from HMV. Yesterday I finally watched the movie Paranormal Activity, which God knows I’ve been wanting to see forever (it was a good, rather scary film. I enjoyed it).

Also, on Wednesday I finally had my Alice In Wonderland play. It went well- no one forgot their lines, everyone had their costumes, et cetera. It was good.

HOWEVER. It’s my school’s sports day on Wednesday. I get Monday off, since it’s a review day, but still. Ellie no do sports days. I have a feeling I’m going to take ill, or accidentally-on-purpose break my arm or something similiar. Either way, I ain’t doing it.

Concerts

Two things before we begin:

1) This is possibly my shortest blog title ever.

2) WARNING: RANT ALERT!

Concerts. Most of us love them. They are awesome things. I happen to be going to two this year, three if the tickets are cheap enough. I love all the bands I’m seeing (Paramore, Framing Hanley, and possibly My Passion), and I’m sure their live shows are great. But here’s the thing: What about the bands I love even MORE than those three, that I’m NOT seeing? That I CAN’T see, because they never come to my goddamn country!!!

It SUCKS. Even when I’ve just eaten a plateful of cheesey waffles (I implore you, next time you have waffles, pour melted cheese over them. Gorgeous) I still feel really annoyed. Why?

• All Time Low played in England this year. I missed it.
• Tokio Hotel were on tour, but the closest they came was France. I missed them.
• Black Veil Brides are playing some shows too, but only in America. Imma miss all of them.
• I’m quite possibly missing My Passion if the tickets are too expensive.

Why can I not see bands play? Why? WHY? Is there some unwritten rule in the universe that purple-haired weird-girls called Ellie can’t go to their favourite bands concerts? Someone, tell me why!

It doesn’t help that I had a Black Veil Brides moment and started reading everything and listening to their music and watching their videos. They talk about all the different people listening to their music and banding together and standing up to the bullies and stuff, but how the hell are we supposed to do that when a lot of fans can’t see them play, because they’re in a different country?

There’s good reasons and crap like that, I know. But I don’t know what those reasons are, and I can’t help but feel a little cheated. All these bands I listen to, I’m a real fan. I buy the CDs and the T-shirts and the posters, and count down the hours until their next song or video comes out. I follow their Twitter and stalk their MySpace. And yet, I can’t see them live, simple because I live in a crappy little country that everyone ignores.

I hate it.

Alright, rant over. Ellie, out.

I Don’t Know What You’re Saying, But I Love It Anyway

To me right now, there is no greater joy in life than music in a language I don’t speak.

I don’t know why, it’s just… lyrics in another language take you to another place. It’s wonderful. I think that when you don’t know what the vocalist is singing, it lets you take in all the other parts of the song. Instead of listening to the lyrics, you can listen to other things- the emotion in the singer’s voice, the instruments being played, the sound of the drums.

Today, about 90% of the songs I’ve listened to have either been in German or Russian. And although I know a little bit of what’s being sung in the chorus, I don’t understand most of the songs. And somehow, I’m enjoying it so much more than when I listen to English music. I don’t have to think about what the message the song is trying to convery is- I can just sit back and let the music carry me away.

Take, for example, Осень by Kit-I. I know that the title is Russian for Autumn, and that the chorus is something along the lines of: ‘Autumn for the fifteenth time already, and you still haven’t loved yet’. But that’s all I know. And this song touches me in ways you wouldn’t believe.

Try it for yourself- take a listen: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IdRdZjPMjOE

Of course, if you’re fluent in Russian it kinda defeats the point, but still. That’s one of my best examples of how a song you don’t understand can reach you.

Anyways, moving on from that topic. Lately I’ve been glued to a little website called alexevans.net. Unsuprisingly, it’s Alex Evans’ blog. At first, I was kinda concerned he’d just be another poser trying to get attention (no offence, but a lot of the gorgeous emo guys scattered around the Internet are), or something equally repulsive, but actually… it’s riveting. He talks about things that are actually relevant to me, and some of the posts really get to me. His photographs are really powerful too, and his designs are talented.

Yeah, I don’t think I’m going to be logging off of that anytime soon.

I went swimming today. It was really fun, actually- the pool was big, and for the first time in forever, my dad came with me. I don’t care how old I am, I’ll always have fun messing around with my dad.

Anyway, it was me and him and my sister, and we went a little crazy (I think the lifeguards were about to kick us out at one point) and it was really fun. I got chips from the chippie and a chocolate muffin afterwards too, so that was really good. I think we’ll have to do this more often.

Finally, just thought I’d tell you all that I’m going to see Paramore in November! They’re playing at a venue really near to me, so I’m going for my birthday present, since the concert is… I believe, nineteen days before my birthday. I’ve been to a Paramore concert before, last year at the Birmingham NIA. It was amazing, and I got to miss a day of school, but the downside was my sister hated it. She was too little, and everyone was pushing her around, and she didn’t know a lot of the songs, and she was too hot and she eventually started to cry. I felt sorry for her and all, but she kinda ruined it for me with her whining. At one point, I was forced to stop jumping and screaming so I wouldn’t be knocking her around with everyone else, and then near the end I had to go to the back of the room, away from all the craziness. So, yeah, it was amazing, but it could’ve been better.

However, this time my sister isn’t coming. So I’ll be able to do everything and anything I want to do. It’s going to be fantastic.

Electric Shocks and Radiant Shadows

Random thing: I just opened up WordPress to find out I’ve been logged on since my last blog entry. Oops. And I think I just came up with my most ownage blog title ever.

Anyways, did I mention I got Radiant Shadows not too long ago? I don’t think so. And I call myself a Wicked Lovely fan? I, for some strange reason, was convinced it didn’t come out until the end of May, when actually, it was released in April.

When I found this out, I dragged my dad and sister down to Waterstones to buy it, and finished it in three days. It was AWESOME. I was reading it at school, and everyone thought I was insane, because I was saying random things about it to no one in particular and fretting over the characters wellbeing.

My only complaint would be that there wasn’t enough Seth. But then again, unless every sentence is about him, there’s never enough Seth for me. XD

Another thing: last night, I was unplugging my laptop charger, and it refused to come out of the socket. While I was struggling with it, I managed (somehow) to touch the metal parts- I forget what they’re called- and gave myself an electric shock.

Didn’t hurt. Gave me a fright though.

Also, I’ve been off school sick for a while. I got sent home after lunch on Thursday, didn’t go back on Friday or Monday, and, since I’m blogging now, I’m obviously still off on Tuesday.

I’m definitely going back tomorrow though, no matter how sick I am. Why? Because it’s Drama. Why is that so important? Because we’re doing Alice in Wonderland. Why is that so important?

BECAUSE I’M THE CHESHIRE CAT!

I’ve wanted to play the Cheshire Cat since the play was announced, and he’s always been my favourite character. And I actually got the part! I’m soooo happy.

Nyaaaahahh, don’t you hate it when you want a crapload of things you can’t afford? For example, my current wishlist:

• The Thin Excecutioner by Darren Shan
• Beautiful Dead: Summer by Eden Maguire
• The Mediator by Meg Cabot
• Stopping Time by Melissa Marr
• A Promise To Burn- Framing Hanley
• Corporate Flesh Party- My Passion
• Almost Alice- Various Artists
• Black Veil Brides’ debut CD (when it comes out)
• Purple Converse high-tops
• Black Converse high-tops
• Funky shoelaces
• A Black Veil Brides T-shirt

To make matters worse, last night my grandparents gifted me with ten pounds. Why is that bad, I hear you ask. Because I had to make the decision of what to buy. And I already spend four quid on two Mediator books, so now I have six left to spend freely. I’m buying a CD with it, if I can afford it. But I still have to decide what, and even so, there’s still be loads of stuff I want and can’t have.

And to top it off, we’re getting a new boiler, so we can’t even use to toilet for the rest of the day.

Blech.

Ooh, Boys Like Girls and Fall Out Boy are on MTV! *is happy again*

There Is So Much Cuteness In The World

It hasn’t been too long since I last posted, has it? No, I don’t think so.

Anyways, there is so much cutness in this world that I did not know about until now. In two days, I have come across six things that are so damn cute they almost killed me.

I found the first two things yesterday. There’s a sweet little girl who lives a few doors down from me in my Dad’s street, who just got some baby rabbits that she called Sparkle and Star. Me and my friend went round her house to see them, and ohmigosh, they were the most adorable little things ever.

Seriously. I wish I could show you guys a picture, but I don’t know the website the piccas of them are on. But anyway, they were tiny- they fit in your hand- and smoky grey, with big bug eyes and tiny widdle ears.

They were gorgeous.

The other four creatures of epic cuteness were kittens. My neighbour who lives two doors down from me in my Mum’s street, and she has a few cats (four, I think). Well, two of those cats just had four ickle babbie kittehz.

There are two tabby ones, a tabby-and-white one, and a black one. They aren’t sure of the genders yet, but they think the tabby that’s started walking is a girl, and the black one with the sore tummy is a boy.

They’re only a few weeks old. They only just opened their eyes, and only one of them is starting to walk. No-one’s going to be able to buy them for ages yet.

(Yeah, my neighbour has to sell the ickle babbie kittehz. She has too many cats already)

But in four weeks, when the kittens are old enough to be sold, there’s a chance me and my sister might be able to get one.

Really, I want two. Because, I don’t want to share a chocolate bar with my sister, let alone a cat, and whereas she wants the girl tabby, I want the black boy. But wouldn’t it be so cool if we could get one each- twin kittehz! I would call him Nico, and he would be my Nico… forever.

There are no piccas of the cats, but I’ll try and find their likeness somewhere… hang on…

*goes on epic Google Images search*

Okay, the non-walking tabby looks something like this…

… only a THOUSAND times cuter.

I REALLY WANT ONE!

Okay, I just realised how awful that all sounded, so Imma clear some things up:

• I’ve wanted a cat for two years- it isn’t just a sudden whim.
• I’ve read countless web pages and books about cat care.
• To be honest, I don’t care if I get a cute kitten or a mangy senior citizen. I just want A cat.

Just to make sure you didn’t think I was one of those terrible people who only want a kitten for their adorability, fail to look after them properly, and dump them once that cat isn’t pretty anymore.

I had other things I was gonna say, but I’m just gonna leave it there for now. Let you try and imagine the true cuteness of these critters.

Shiver, Purple Hair, Black Veil Brides and Andy 6

Yes, that title does list four things that are on my mind right now. That’s unusual, because usually my titles only have, like, two things listed.

First and foremost: My hair is purple!

Blue Banana is amazing. I ordered semi-permanant purple dye off of it, so I dyed my hair (and my scalp, too, but who cares about that). It didn’t come out as vibrant as I would have liked, due to my hair being naturally brown instead of the peroxide blonde that is advised for purple colouring, but still, I like it. It looks all smoky and mysertious, like a faerie. I wish my way-too-strict parents would let me post a photo to show everyone, but they still think I’m six, so I can’t.

Secondly, I finished Shiver, and I think I might have a new favourite book. Seriously. It was beautiful and amazing and haunting. I almost cried in the last couple I chapters, honestly. I was welling up. Shiver is such a powerful story. It’s one of those books where you really feel for the characters, you’re hoping with all your might that they’ll get the happy ending you know they deserve.

Hmm… the last two topics are quite similar, but I’ll split them into two anyways.

Black Veil Brides are a band I recently discovered by constantly watching My Passion songs on YouTube. One of BVB’s songs, Knives and Pens, kept coming up in the Related Videos sidebar, so I watched it, and it was awesome. Which is weird, because I usually don’t like rock as hard as that, or screaming as much as that. But ’twas good. So I listened to some more.

After listening to pretty much every song by Black Veil Brides on YouTube, I concluded that The Mortician’s Daughter is my favourite, followed closely by Knives and Pens, and then The Gunsling and We Stitch These Wounds.

Finally, we come to the topic of Andy 6. He’s the lead singer of Black Veil Brides, but he also does various stuff on YouTube. For example, the comedy thing he does, Chance and Andy, and then there’s my favourite, his Vlogs. They’re pretty cool and funny for reasons I can’t really explain. But still. They amuse me, and if they don’t amuse you too… well, you just have no sense of humour.

Now, I say this at the risk of sounding all fangirly and icky, like one of those girls that give female fans of celebrities a bad name, but I’ll say it anyway: Not only is Andy 6 a good singer with some awesome videos, he’s hot.

Not quite so hot as Bill Kaulitz, but very close. Seriously. Use the almightly power of the Google Images search bar, you’ll see what I mean.

Do it, if you don’t believe me. Go on.

Damn You, MagiStream

Let me give you all a warning: MagiStream.com is the most addictive site ever. Only join it if you are prepared to spend every waking moment of your life glued to that website.

Since joining, my life is gone. I can’t tear myself away. The time I spend writing has fallen even farther, I don’t read anymore, I don’t even go on the Tokio Hotel forum as often as before.

Ugh.

Another thing I feel like damning: three stores. Namely, Home Bargains, Claires, Superdrug and Boots.

Why, I hear you ask?

Because, apparently it’s too hard for them to stock semi-permanent purple hair dye.

Anyone who knows me knows that it’s a dear dream of mine to have purple hair. But my over-protective mother refuses to let me use permanent hair dye, so I need semi-permanent. But nowhere has it, so I can’t dye my hair purple.

This sucks.

And one more thing about my mother- she’s become obsessed with plucking my eyebrows. Seriously. She really wants to.

Well, that’s just weird, isn’t it?

So Much For The New Layout

I think the new and improved purple/blue layput lasted all of fifteen minutes.

I didn’t really like it, it wasn’t all pretty with a hint of Goth like the red and black one, it was hard to read… yeah, it’s gone now.

The only thing I did keep was the banner. I made a few minor adjustments to the banner so it fit the red and black layout, because the angel mirror thing is pretty and I really love it. Plus, I worked hard on that.

Wow, you guys got two posts today. Lucky ducks.

New Layout! Yay!

So, I got the new layout of the blog done.

Like last time, this is just a default layout from WordPress. I’d like to create my own, but I don’t know a single line of CSS coding, so I’d probably end up making my laptop explode and deleting not only this site, but every site in the Internet, if I tried.

So I think it’s best if I leave it alone.

I did however make the new banner myself. Yay for GIMP! It’s supposed to be a lot bigger, so you can see the whole mirror and more of the angels, but I had to trim it so it fit into the header section.

I’ll probably upload the whole thing onto my art page later.

Moving on from that, I started reading Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater. In about forty five minutes of reading, I’d got up to page 60 and concluded that this books’ a lot better than my first impression of it.

I’ll have to wait until I finish it to see if it is a really good book though.

Futhermore, has anyone heard of the site MagiStream? Well, it’s addictive. Seriously. I can’t get off of it. It’s almost as addictive as the Tokio Hotel US Forum. And between those two sites, school (by the by, my Easter holidays started on Wednesday! Yay! ), eating and sleeping, I hardly have time to write. Which sucks, and means a certain angry Tokio Hotel fan is threatening my virtual self with loaded guns… ¬.¬

*sigh* In any case, I have things to do and places to be in other sites on the interwebs, so I must bid you all farewell.

My Skinnies! NO!

NO!

My skinnies! *weeps*

I have the most wonderful pair of skinny jeans. They fit perfectly, leg length and around my waist, and aren’t too tight too be uncomfortable, or too loose that they barely classify as skinnies. And, they’re bright purple.

My skinnies are just perfect. But guess what I did?

Well, I’ve been spending the Easter weekend with my aunt, uncle, cousins and ickle baby second-cousin, who live a six hour car ride away. Naturally, I got a bunch of yummy Easter eggs, which had to be taken back home.

So what did I cleverly do?

Sit on one.

I didn’t realise until the car ride was over. So now not only is the seat of my dad’s car covered in chocolate (which he is furious about, may I add), so are my skinnies.

*whimpers*

I’m such an idiot.

But, moving on: the last time I informed you guys of my reading habits, I believe I said that I in the middle of Betrayed, the second House of Night book. Well, I’m not anymore. I’ve finished the entire House of Night series. All the ones that are out yet, anyway.

They are all awesome.

Seriously. Stark is an amazing charrie, Stevie Rae and Aphrodite make me giggle, Jack is just too cute… and the whole plot is amazing. It’s so imaginative, with twists and surprises at every turn. I love it.

So, while I wait (im)patiently for the release of Burned, Radiant Shadows, and Kiss of Death, I’m going to start reading Shiver. From what I’ve gathered by reading the blurb, it’s about werewolves.

On the subject of books, lately I’ve got the craving to read manga novels. This is something I’ve never done in my life, but desperately want to. However, I can’t seem to find one I’d like to read. Preferably, I want paranormal romance (you all know that’s my favourite genre), and it would be fantastic if there was just one teeny little Emo boy. I don’t think I’ve mentioned this on my blog yet, but I’m a sucker for a nice, pretty Emo boy.

Oh, and one last thing before I go: I have decided I’m totally revamping the layout and look of my blog, so things are gonna be a little hectic while I get it sorted. Fear not though, Ellie’s Thoughts fans, it won’t take too long.